sweet dreams

Saturday nights are boring. Norma Jean made a list of 50 things about herself, how vain is her sorry ass? Ahaha, seeing as she made one, I feel the temptation to make one as well, I guess I'm just as vain as her.


1. I absolutely hate the word 'art'.


2. I moved to Australia when I was 7.


3. My bestfriend is the complete opposite of me, yet we are so much a like.


4. I have too many problems in my head, and only two people in the world knows about it.



5. I had one friend in kindy, through to pre-school, and through year 1 and 2.


6. When I was about 9 years old, something bad happened.


7. When I was 8, I walked into my grandmother's room and found her corpse on the floor facing the corner of her bed.


8. I haven't seen my dad in over 10 years, and I still remember his face. He was my bestfriend.


9. We own a black mercede back in Thailand.


10. My mum was from the city and my dad was from the country.


11. I'm more like my dad, than my sister.


12. I have four cousins, whom I love very much.


13. I took a ride with a stranger and her dog today, and made it out a live.


14. I wake up every day scare, I don't know why.


15. I hardly ever dreams.


16. Some of my friend's parents, doesn't really like me, and doesn't want their kids to be hanging out with me, because I'm too 'wierd'.


17. I don't like to talk much when I'm in a big group.


18. I will always love grindcore.


19. Rise Against, wil always have a place in my heart.


20. I have never broken a bone in my body.


21. I went into surgery once or twice, when I was 4.


22. I was born 2-3 months early, and spent a lot of time in the hospital.


23. I'm good with saving money.


24. I mumble and stutter, I absolutely hate it.


25. I used to work for record labels. (Volunteer)


26. I don't like little kids.


27. I tell myself that I miss my dad every day even though I don't.


28. I get jealous, everytime I see a happy family.


29. My mum is my back bone, she's one of the strongest women, I've ever met.


30. I know too many useless things.


31. I don't care about what people think of me.


32. Playing the guitar makes me depress, yet I will never sell my guitar.


33. I hate people in general.


34. I don't think I have any talent, anybody can do what I do.


35. I badly want to go on a road trip with Sabrina.


36. I used too be a fat kid, to the point where some guy thought I was a pregnant 10 year old.


37. I don't like talking about art, and it isn't my life.


38. I hate people on myspace who thinks they can draw, even though they can't and its just a stupid trend.


39. I hate crying.


40. I hate him.


41. Every time I cry, I imagine myself running away to the beach, standing there and not knowing what to do. Some times I imagine myself on top of a building, look over the city sky, and I jump.


42. In my head, I have died too many times.


43. I miss my guinea pigs.


44. I never knew how much my family meant to me until I was 13-14.


45. I feel as if when I've lost my weight, my family started to accept me.


46. I don't have many friends, but I do know a lot of people.


47. I always feel like I'm much older than my age.


48. I can act really well, I just tell people I can't.


49. I'm scare I'm not strong enough, because I know people who look up to me, and I don't want them to see my fears.


50. I'm afraid of moving forward, I'm afraid of not making it, because people doesn't want me to leave them behind.