What if I were smiling? and running into your arms?

These are just some of the people who inspires me 1 out of the four are still alive today. Their work. Their life. Their choices. Their mistakes. Their commitments. Their stories. Their achievements. Their tragedies. Their happiness.

The Self portrait I did for my mum of my grandfather
Diane Arbus
Christopher McCandless
Paul Gardner
Brandon Teena

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This was a shitty picture I drew when I was suppose to be studying...

I had my final high school exam today. It's starting to scare me. Sitting here at home, five days of no school until next Monday. Basically only three days left. Those three will be spent at school, while the others will be the formal and the beach day. I'm finally comng close to freedom. Fourteen years (Spent the extra Kindy and Pre school in Thailand, it was like actually school) of being told what to do, where to sit, and where to go is over, most people don't even realise it. People are starting to change thier colours and I'm ready to spend the next couple of years in my head, like I usually do.

Everybody is scare and they're all watching me. Scrutinzing my every movement. I'm going to fuck up and I know I will. I like life, I like my life. Obviously we all have our problems. "We can all survive, we just don't have to be so God Damn sad about it". When you read this you probably think I'm living a good life and nothing drastic have ever happened to me. Please keep thinking that, because I can just be making it all up. Just because I can and I will.