When everybody else refrained, my uncle Johnny did cocaine.

'He's convinced himself right in his brain, that it helps to take away the pain'-Uncle Johny, The Killers

Some times when I close my eyes, and listen, I can hear myself breathing. I can hear myself thinking and I can see my mind. It is not the best place in the world...but it is the only thing I've got. It's one of the main thing that will ever break me. I need to figure out so many things. I need to stop worry so much. It's so hard to be optimistic when people around you are not, especially when you can see the pain in their eyes. I ignore so much negativity in my life. I have been for so long. I just push it to the back of my mind. It helps me get over situation better......We can all be a ghost child.