I want to be your favourite hello and your hardest good bye.

I can't sleep. I've just finished one of my assignment, so good. Next stop media law, public writing and notes for my exams.Tomorrow Davey is coming over and I'm making him breakfast. Pancakes for all. I like Mondays.

I hate thinking about the past. I can't control my mind. I think back to all those memories of fulfillment, excitement, nerve-wrecking, and happiness. The moment when my heart stopped and the moment when my heart was going a mile per second. I wouldn't change it for the world. But the truth is, sometimes we need to move on in order to live for the present and for the future. My heart hurts when I think about the past. Maybe it's because I miss them so much. Everything is different now.

Late at night, I would try to remember everything that had made me laughed and cry. I can't help myself. All my mind want is emotion, and attention. It's scary. It's weird, because when I talk about my mind, it feels like I'm talking about another living being. I always try to separate myself from it. My mind is conflicting, complex and discombobulate.

I am trying to order a Canon DSLR 450D from Ebay, hopefully I get it soon. I hate Paypal so much. I want to take photos of everything. I want to keep memories. I've never really realise how important visual memories are. My younger sister has a Canon DSLR 500D, just a model up from mine, but hers came with adapters. They're the same size lenses, so we'll probably share them ahahaa I also need to get a portable hard drive. So excited.

*sorry I haven't been posting much interesting things. A lot is always on my mind, and me actually seeing what I'm thinking helps me figure things out. It's therapeutic.

I love this girl's hair, I wish I was able to do something similar..