This world has no shame.

I wish I had the ability to saw my head open and diagnose what emotion and physical pain I am feeling. It is as if there is another living being in there. She has no name. She is we. We are forever bind. She controls my thoughts, my dreams and my nightmares. I can't explain what I see. All I want to do is sleep and forget about what is happening all around me. I can feel it. There is something there. My mind is poison, but I will never cut my ear off. I can feel it worsen. I bang my head hoping it would one day go away, but it doesn't. I think it needs to go away for a while. My mind needs to be in solitude. I can't have anything affecting it.

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