I'm sick of being insane.

You will never be more beautiful than you are now.

I am finally finished for the year. What do I do now? haha
I'm only half way there until I finish my course and then I will be in Melbourne with my favourite. I'm so excited. I get so sad when I see other people moving there. I want to do the same and I will. I just feel so stuck even though I'm not. I have to remind myself that I am in uni, and it's cheaper for me to finish uni on the Gold Coast. If I did move to Melbourne during uni, I will have no motivation to do well in my subjects, all I would want to do is party and explore.

Some people change for the good, and some change for the bad. We never know what it will be. We can only hope for the best. You can go your whole life doing the same thing you are doing, or change something to make your life a little more interesting. Life shouldn't be about routine. I believe it should be full of surprises, and emotions. People shouldn't criticize others, they should voice their opinion, in respect, hoping that it would help them along the way.

Today my cousin called me from Thailand, it was nice hearing her voice, I can't until she gets back.

I've been spending so much money lately, I need to stop and re-save every thing! Maybe after a pair of heels and lipsticks...This Sunday I will be going to Canellis and I are going to his parent's house for breakfast. His mum makes the best waffles. My God I love waffles.

I am now on a four months holiday. I can not wait to go out! I haven't been out in so long. Every girl loves dressing up and wearing heels. Drinking and smoking.

This week my plan is to clean out my closet. I will be getting rid of heaps of my clothes and will be given aware to charity. I don't think anyone would want my old clothes. Trust me. My 'new' closet will be all black. It's going to be great for summer...

I'm still waiting for my American Apparel packages to arrive. Hurry up you whore!

*Sorry if this post wasn't interesting. I've been so restless and stress, it's nice to finally relax.

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I'm going to sleep my feelings way, thank you moon lights.

I feel like I'm drowning in a cold sea full of strangers. I am on my own. I close my eyes and before I jump, I re-collect every pieces of my childhood, my innocent, before I knew what real emotions were. But I can't. I can't pin point those moments. It's lost in a pile of unwanted waste. I'm fragile, and I will break at the first chance God lets me.

I am in a constant war with myself. It's never ending.

I write things. I say things. I keep things. I think things. All which makes me, me. I hate anger, I hate frustration, I hate stress and I hate yelling. I try to stay clam. It's rare for me to yell. I put my head up high. I hate wasting time. We all are busy creatures.

My mind is constantly running. I can feel it. I think too much about the past, the present and the future. I can't help myself. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I spend so much time in solitude. Maybe it's because my mind feels like it's always in solitude and that thinking about everything makes it feel warm and comfort. My dreams are lucid and my nightmares contain parts of my reality. Everything is connected. I don't control anything. The more I write, the more I understand why I do the things I do and think the way I think. It's a way for me to figure myself out.

I don't like telling people what I think about, because I know it will hurt them. I don't like hurting others. When I actually have something to tell them, I will. I put others before me, because I know most of the time I will be okay. I always recover from most situation. I don't like showing emotions that a frown upon in society. I am clam and collected.

Today I received my mark back for my media law essay. I'm not happy with the mark, but that's okay, because there is always a chance for improvement. I will do and try much harder in the next one. It's going to be okay.

I've been looking at apartments in Melbourne, and some are pretty cool, especially the building. I can't wait to move there and decorate my own place. I now know how much more I need to save. I wont be there for a while, but it's always good to check the real estate out. I miss it so much.

I need to get away from here. My mind needs a rest.