I never sleep.

This afternoon Canellis and I drove out to The Spit to watch the storm coming in. It was beautiful, we also devoured our stomach with fried potatoes and sea food.

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During the day I went into Office Works and purchased some drawing and write equipments. University will soon be starting, and parking will be hell.

The photo below is the behind the scene of my sister's photo shoot for her collection. If you would like to see more visit her blog.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake.

I've realised in life, people can only influence you to believe or think a certain way. But at the end of the day, any decisions you make, or any thoughts you put into you mind is your own doing. We are smart enough to control what goes into our mind. I can't keep blaming those close to me for things I feel I have lost. It's not fair to them. Maybe I haven't lose anything, I just don't remember where I've placed it. I will one day, just not today. I'm still trying to work out all the kinks in my head. I'll be okay, I always am.

Sorry I haven't been updating much, my laptop charger exploded and the one I ordered arrived today. I'm still waiting for my flash to come in the mail. So excited. This coming Sunday I will be working at the BDO, I'm a bit nervous, like all jobs I go for. Also Still waiting for an important phone call..ahhh

Today Davey's dad serviced my car. I'm so thankful. Tomorrow we are going out for sushi in Varsity. 

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Summer has finally began, my skin is getting tanner. I don't sunburn I tan...haha

This year at uni I plan on doing volunteer work, and internships. woo.

Treat me like your mother.

It has been a long night. I am currently listening to The Dead Weather. Speaking of the weather, it is humid and wet. Bacteria's breeding ground at my front door step. This week I will be ordering a speedlite (flash) for my dslr, I'm just waiting for my Paypal money to go through. Yay.

Recently I did an interview for a marketing job, it's a long process which involves a phone interview, filling out applications and a face-to-face interview. Some of the clients I will hopefully be handling are Commonwealth Bank and Apple. I know if I wasn't going to university I wouldn't had a chance at this opportunity. I'm starting to see the up-side of university. I do not want a 9-5 retail job. I am inspired to be a career women.

I can not believe how close I am to moving to Melbourne. There are people who complains about where they live. Why not do something about it?

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At the end of this year I will hopefully be leaving for Thailand for two weeks to visit my grandfather. I need to avoid spending at all cost. I need to start budgeting once again.

Also, I've been getting back into drawing. I'm really happy about it. Tomorrow I am going to Boarders to look for inspirations.

This world has no shame.

I wish I had the ability to saw my head open and diagnose what emotion and physical pain I am feeling. It is as if there is another living being in there. She has no name. She is we. We are forever bind. She controls my thoughts, my dreams and my nightmares. I can't explain what I see. All I want to do is sleep and forget about what is happening all around me. I can feel it. There is something there. My mind is poison, but I will never cut my ear off. I can feel it worsen. I bang my head hoping it would one day go away, but it doesn't. I think it needs to go away for a while. My mind needs to be in solitude. I can't have anything affecting it.

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And in my dream, I saw you, your eyes will never die. In my dreams it will never die.

Do you remember her? Do you remember the way she'd made you feel? Do you remember the way she'd made you cry? The way she'd kissed. The way she tore you open, cut your organs into small pieces and place them on the walls like plastic stars? The way she said she will never leave you. The way she said she will forever haunt your nightmares and fears? I do.


I always imagine myself to be more of a person I am not. A different person, with more egos. Someone who screams, yells, and fight. Some who takes things to the heart. I'm pretty glad I am not like that in real life. Fighting, and pulling other people's hair is class-less, trashy and for those who are uneducated. I wasn't raise to cause havoc. I was raised with manners and class. I take things lightly. I love sarcasm and jokes. I am the biggest loser/ dork you will ever meet. I'm not someone who talks inappropriately about people who I haven't met. I don't plan on throwing my drink on someone's dress, it's disgusting and ill-mannered. I am better than that. I don't believe 'trashy' is attractive. Not one bit. I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by educated and open-minded people to figure out what is right and wrong. Also the only time I would ever 'fight' with someone is for the purpose of self-defence.


Last night I started on a new project, I haven't done one in a long time and it's nice to get back into drawing (slowly). Last year I worked on a project called 'The Bearded People Collection', in comparison to this one I have no idea where it is heading.We will just have to see! This also means more updates on drawings, and flickr.

Lately I've been watching a lot of Jersey Shore (I know..I know) it makes me want to go out, bring girls back and go in a hot tub. I'm not really into girls, and I don't own a hot tub. Nice little funny thought, my brain is still laughing. Seriously haha.

I've been enjoying my uni holidays. A lot of relaxing, phone calls, eating, sleeping, and hanging out with good people. I love every moment of it. I can already see next semester becoming Hell on Earth. Rad. I'm a tad bit excited for my internship though.

My sister is leaving for Japan in a couple weeks, while I'm stuck on the Gold Coast. A majority of my family members are going to Thailand and Vietnam, Christmas is going to be interesting.

Tomorrow my sister and I are taking Pyqals to the vet, he has grown so much. He's such a naughty little boy. The other way I caught him drinking out of my glass, and while I was sleeping he latched on to my back and clawed. He's also scratched my face, and it bled. Good times, and he's not even my cat.

*Just a reminder, I know I write a lot of words that sometimes do not make sense, I ramble and don't really do a spell check. If you are offended by anything I write on this blog, please don't read it, and move on with your life.

Happy Hunting.

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I'm sick of being insane.

You will never be more beautiful than you are now.

I am finally finished for the year. What do I do now? haha
I'm only half way there until I finish my course and then I will be in Melbourne with my favourite. I'm so excited. I get so sad when I see other people moving there. I want to do the same and I will. I just feel so stuck even though I'm not. I have to remind myself that I am in uni, and it's cheaper for me to finish uni on the Gold Coast. If I did move to Melbourne during uni, I will have no motivation to do well in my subjects, all I would want to do is party and explore.

Some people change for the good, and some change for the bad. We never know what it will be. We can only hope for the best. You can go your whole life doing the same thing you are doing, or change something to make your life a little more interesting. Life shouldn't be about routine. I believe it should be full of surprises, and emotions. People shouldn't criticize others, they should voice their opinion, in respect, hoping that it would help them along the way.

Today my cousin called me from Thailand, it was nice hearing her voice, I can't until she gets back.

I've been spending so much money lately, I need to stop and re-save every thing! Maybe after a pair of heels and lipsticks...This Sunday I will be going to Canellis and I are going to his parent's house for breakfast. His mum makes the best waffles. My God I love waffles.

I am now on a four months holiday. I can not wait to go out! I haven't been out in so long. Every girl loves dressing up and wearing heels. Drinking and smoking.

This week my plan is to clean out my closet. I will be getting rid of heaps of my clothes and will be given aware to charity. I don't think anyone would want my old clothes. Trust me. My 'new' closet will be all black. It's going to be great for summer...

I'm still waiting for my American Apparel packages to arrive. Hurry up you whore!

*Sorry if this post wasn't interesting. I've been so restless and stress, it's nice to finally relax.

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I don't know where we're going. All I know is, it's just you and me. And no one else.


We are who we are. Some people will never change. I admire those who are willing to change for the better. Every creature and beings have to the ability to keep changing, to keep evolving. We are all one of a kind. It's harder for someone to admit their faults, than dwell in their emotions. We are all full of discourses, connotations, denotations, and ideologies. We have the ability to achieve greater purposes than we do now.

Nicholas Taleb's once wrote 'do not give an addict more drugs if he has withdrawal pains' I strongly believe that. If you're trying to quit smoking, quit drinking or any sort of drug, I suggest cold turkey. Your body needs to get use to itself before the drugs was ever in your system. Don't give empty promises, and don't say things you know you will go back on. Decreasing your in take does nothing. You are still doing the same thing you were before, just less. You will never understand what those around you are going through. It is truly the worst heartache of all. And it's sad because you will never know what it feels like, or why they are suffering. You should consider yourself lucky, because there are people out there who are willing to suffer for you. Always remember, they suffer, because they care, and one day, they'll stop suffering for you.


At the moment I am trying to finish off my 1800 words public writing assignment. All I have to do is write my exegesis. Next stop, studying for my media law exam and continue on with my essay on defamation.

I can not wait for the holidays. I haven't been out in so long.

Dear Mecca Cosmetica, you just keep getting better and better. Mecca Cosmetica is one of my all time favourite beauty store. Right above MAC. The quality is so much better, and it's a little more dearer. So glad I got my make-up done there. I can not wait to purchase some NARS eye shadow... and YSL lipstick..

Sorry I haven't post much interesting things. I have so much assessments.

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I would rather fix the problem, than dwell on it before further damage is done. I don't like to complain, but I can't say I don't. If you go out there and do something about a problem, then there wouldn't be one. We can only do so much. Don't try to help someone who steps over you, who makes you feel like dirt on the ground when you suggest something or who will take it as an insult. We are who we are, our relationship with others is constantly growing. Don't let yourself get hurt over some malignant investment.

Over the past week my stole cape came in the mail, finally ordered my DSLR and a SD memory card. I can't wait until the rest of my package come. Ebay is so addictive...

When everything falls, all the damages will eventually work its way out. Time is our killer. All we can do is try to calm ourselves down and be optimistic. Unless the situation is on constant repeat and you can feel yourself knowing every action.

I remembered back in high school I made myself a promise. From hearing about all the wrong experiences from my friends. I promise myself that I will not let any of it happen to me. But I can't plan my future. Nothing ever works out the way we want. I remembered promising myself that no matter what happens I will be able to take care of myself, I have never rely on anyone. I don't plan on it. Reliance to me, is weakness. They will most likely fuck you over. You just have to know what you want, you can rely on someone to help you yes, but only a small amount. That's the way I roll. Independent since 13. Independence is a huge thing for a girl. Men should never doubt it or put it at risk. It is easily taken away.

I have two more assignments and three exams and I will be finish for the year. Media Law you will be the death of me... I've been trying to cut down on make-up. I haven't purchase any in a while. I'm proud of myself. I'm going to get in a habit of ordering make-up online. It's so much cheaper. Very happy about the AUD and US currency ($1.00= $1.0004?)

This girl is beautiful. I love girls who let their freckles show through...

* I write a lot of crap. They are just things that are on my mind, please don't be offended by my thoughts. They are not intended to harm or offend.