I will loan you my lungs.

I honestly feel like the loneliest person in the world. But this is just a glitch in my life.

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Fact: Back then in movies you will see little girls smoking cigarettes, but they're actually smoking lettuce.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake.

I've realised in life, people can only influence you to believe or think a certain way. But at the end of the day, any decisions you make, or any thoughts you put into you mind is your own doing. We are smart enough to control what goes into our mind. I can't keep blaming those close to me for things I feel I have lost. It's not fair to them. Maybe I haven't lose anything, I just don't remember where I've placed it. I will one day, just not today. I'm still trying to work out all the kinks in my head. I'll be okay, I always am.

Sorry I haven't been updating much, my laptop charger exploded and the one I ordered arrived today. I'm still waiting for my flash to come in the mail. So excited. This coming Sunday I will be working at the BDO, I'm a bit nervous, like all jobs I go for. Also Still waiting for an important phone call..ahhh

Today Davey's dad serviced my car. I'm so thankful. Tomorrow we are going out for sushi in Varsity. 

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Summer has finally began, my skin is getting tanner. I don't sunburn I tan...haha

This year at uni I plan on doing volunteer work, and internships. woo.

Treat me like your mother.

It has been a long night. I am currently listening to The Dead Weather. Speaking of the weather, it is humid and wet. Bacteria's breeding ground at my front door step. This week I will be ordering a speedlite (flash) for my dslr, I'm just waiting for my Paypal money to go through. Yay.

Recently I did an interview for a marketing job, it's a long process which involves a phone interview, filling out applications and a face-to-face interview. Some of the clients I will hopefully be handling are Commonwealth Bank and Apple. I know if I wasn't going to university I wouldn't had a chance at this opportunity. I'm starting to see the up-side of university. I do not want a 9-5 retail job. I am inspired to be a career women.

I can not believe how close I am to moving to Melbourne. There are people who complains about where they live. Why not do something about it?

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At the end of this year I will hopefully be leaving for Thailand for two weeks to visit my grandfather. I need to avoid spending at all cost. I need to start budgeting once again.

Also, I've been getting back into drawing. I'm really happy about it. Tomorrow I am going to Boarders to look for inspirations.

This world has no shame.

I wish I had the ability to saw my head open and diagnose what emotion and physical pain I am feeling. It is as if there is another living being in there. She has no name. She is we. We are forever bind. She controls my thoughts, my dreams and my nightmares. I can't explain what I see. All I want to do is sleep and forget about what is happening all around me. I can feel it. There is something there. My mind is poison, but I will never cut my ear off. I can feel it worsen. I bang my head hoping it would one day go away, but it doesn't. I think it needs to go away for a while. My mind needs to be in solitude. I can't have anything affecting it.

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You can drink what you like.

Yesterday Canellis and I went to Robina...Christmas shopping and movie times. We watched 'Megamind' which I believed was pretty damned good. It was such a good children's movie, I love the message behind it.

Going back to Christmas shopping, I purchased Canellis Wayne Cooper and Dr Denim. hahaha I swear his closet upgraded to designers and labels ever since he'd met me. Reading this may sound like I dress him, but I honestly don't, I never have and I never will. All I do is give him advice and help him find nice things..and some how we match. Good times.

This morning I went to the Post Office to return what I thought was my New Years Eve dress. It honestly was a beautiful dress, but in no way it flattered any parts of my body. 

Last night my sister asked me what I wanted for Christmas, I still have no idea. I'm one of those person who desire something and actually go and get it, without waiting for anyone. I like that quality. And if I want a baby, then bitch you will give me a baby..kidding hahaha. but yeah you know what I mean.

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We fight. We sleep. We die.

Do you ever wish you had the power to go back to the past and change something? Do something different? Stop things from happening? I think about it sometimes. Mostly at night. It makes me sad. My mind is always curious.


I'm going to be blunt and tell you how much I hate people. I hate girls and I hate guys. I hate old and I hate young. I have never loathe so much. If I had a chance to go live some where far a way for a period of time I would. Relax and leave everything behind. I need a break from every living creatures. I loathe everything that fucking talks.

Life is different after high school, you have plans and set goals, and sometimes they don't work out the way you want it to. There is no point dwelling in it, sure you can think about it from time to time. I don't own your mind so I can't tell you what to do with it. I guess the only thing you can do, or I can do is to live in the present and think of the future. Think about what I can do differently. Think about my new plans and goals. I need sleep.

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And in my dream, I saw you, your eyes will never die. In my dreams it will never die.

Do you remember her? Do you remember the way she'd made you feel? Do you remember the way she'd made you cry? The way she'd kissed. The way she tore you open, cut your organs into small pieces and place them on the walls like plastic stars? The way she said she will never leave you. The way she said she will forever haunt your nightmares and fears? I do.


I always imagine myself to be more of a person I am not. A different person, with more egos. Someone who screams, yells, and fight. Some who takes things to the heart. I'm pretty glad I am not like that in real life. Fighting, and pulling other people's hair is class-less, trashy and for those who are uneducated. I wasn't raise to cause havoc. I was raised with manners and class. I take things lightly. I love sarcasm and jokes. I am the biggest loser/ dork you will ever meet. I'm not someone who talks inappropriately about people who I haven't met. I don't plan on throwing my drink on someone's dress, it's disgusting and ill-mannered. I am better than that. I don't believe 'trashy' is attractive. Not one bit. I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by educated and open-minded people to figure out what is right and wrong. Also the only time I would ever 'fight' with someone is for the purpose of self-defence.


Last night I started on a new project, I haven't done one in a long time and it's nice to get back into drawing (slowly). Last year I worked on a project called 'The Bearded People Collection', in comparison to this one I have no idea where it is heading.We will just have to see! This also means more updates on drawings, and flickr.

Lately I've been watching a lot of Jersey Shore (I know..I know) it makes me want to go out, bring girls back and go in a hot tub. I'm not really into girls, and I don't own a hot tub. Nice little funny thought, my brain is still laughing. Seriously haha.

I've been enjoying my uni holidays. A lot of relaxing, phone calls, eating, sleeping, and hanging out with good people. I love every moment of it. I can already see next semester becoming Hell on Earth. Rad. I'm a tad bit excited for my internship though.

My sister is leaving for Japan in a couple weeks, while I'm stuck on the Gold Coast. A majority of my family members are going to Thailand and Vietnam, Christmas is going to be interesting.

Tomorrow my sister and I are taking Pyqals to the vet, he has grown so much. He's such a naughty little boy. The other way I caught him drinking out of my glass, and while I was sleeping he latched on to my back and clawed. He's also scratched my face, and it bled. Good times, and he's not even my cat.

*Just a reminder, I know I write a lot of words that sometimes do not make sense, I ramble and don't really do a spell check. If you are offended by anything I write on this blog, please don't read it, and move on with your life.

Happy Hunting.

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He laid emerald in her eyes.

I am in a good place in my life right now. Never have I felt this way before. It's memorizing, addictive and free. I don't want to think about anything else. I haven't thought about anything negative that will upset me. I just look forward to the future and enjoy the present. My insides are warm and fuzzy. I love every moment of it.

Every time I see people walking long a street, I always wondered what they are like as a person, and what they were like as a child. Society shapes people, people shapes people, that's just how some goes. People shouldn't take life too seriously, otherwise you'll come out looking like an asshole. Every thing is easier if you just laugh it off and forget about it. It's all a joke. Human beings are interactive creatures. We must never feel alone. Therefore we must not take things too seriously. Enjoy everything while you can.

Last night I ordered some stuff from American Apparel, I spent around $200 with my discount. God I miss that store, I love their clothes. I purchased some pants, skirts and a top. Good times. I don't really go out much, which is the reason why I spend so much on one go. And either way my clothes need new friends.

 I need to tidy up my closet...hmm.

 

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Also my sister came home with a new kitten last night, his name is Pyqals Lhaochareonwong (pronounce Pickles). He's an adorable little thing. I love him to bits.

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Tonight I will be procrastinating and studying for my finals..advertising and corporate communication& pr. Tomorrow I'm going into the uni to hand in final assignment. 

ahhhhhhhhh my brain is about burst.

I don't know where we're going. All I know is, it's just you and me. And no one else.


We are who we are. Some people will never change. I admire those who are willing to change for the better. Every creature and beings have to the ability to keep changing, to keep evolving. We are all one of a kind. It's harder for someone to admit their faults, than dwell in their emotions. We are all full of discourses, connotations, denotations, and ideologies. We have the ability to achieve greater purposes than we do now.

Nicholas Taleb's once wrote 'do not give an addict more drugs if he has withdrawal pains' I strongly believe that. If you're trying to quit smoking, quit drinking or any sort of drug, I suggest cold turkey. Your body needs to get use to itself before the drugs was ever in your system. Don't give empty promises, and don't say things you know you will go back on. Decreasing your in take does nothing. You are still doing the same thing you were before, just less. You will never understand what those around you are going through. It is truly the worst heartache of all. And it's sad because you will never know what it feels like, or why they are suffering. You should consider yourself lucky, because there are people out there who are willing to suffer for you. Always remember, they suffer, because they care, and one day, they'll stop suffering for you.


At the moment I am trying to finish off my 1800 words public writing assignment. All I have to do is write my exegesis. Next stop, studying for my media law exam and continue on with my essay on defamation.

I can not wait for the holidays. I haven't been out in so long.

Dear Mecca Cosmetica, you just keep getting better and better. Mecca Cosmetica is one of my all time favourite beauty store. Right above MAC. The quality is so much better, and it's a little more dearer. So glad I got my make-up done there. I can not wait to purchase some NARS eye shadow... and YSL lipstick..

Sorry I haven't post much interesting things. I have so much assessments.

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