I would rather fix the problem, than dwell on it before further damage is done. I don't like to complain, but I can't say I don't. If you go out there and do something about a problem, then there wouldn't be one. We can only do so much. Don't try to help someone who steps over you, who makes you feel like dirt on the ground when you suggest something or who will take it as an insult. We are who we are, our relationship with others is constantly growing. Don't let yourself get hurt over some malignant investment.

Over the past week my stole cape came in the mail, finally ordered my DSLR and a SD memory card. I can't wait until the rest of my package come. Ebay is so addictive...

When everything falls, all the damages will eventually work its way out. Time is our killer. All we can do is try to calm ourselves down and be optimistic. Unless the situation is on constant repeat and you can feel yourself knowing every action.

I remembered back in high school I made myself a promise. From hearing about all the wrong experiences from my friends. I promise myself that I will not let any of it happen to me. But I can't plan my future. Nothing ever works out the way we want. I remembered promising myself that no matter what happens I will be able to take care of myself, I have never rely on anyone. I don't plan on it. Reliance to me, is weakness. They will most likely fuck you over. You just have to know what you want, you can rely on someone to help you yes, but only a small amount. That's the way I roll. Independent since 13. Independence is a huge thing for a girl. Men should never doubt it or put it at risk. It is easily taken away.

I have two more assignments and three exams and I will be finish for the year. Media Law you will be the death of me... I've been trying to cut down on make-up. I haven't purchase any in a while. I'm proud of myself. I'm going to get in a habit of ordering make-up online. It's so much cheaper. Very happy about the AUD and US currency ($1.00= $1.0004?)

This girl is beautiful. I love girls who let their freckles show through...

* I write a lot of crap. They are just things that are on my mind, please don't be offended by my thoughts. They are not intended to harm or offend.

The more you suffer, it shows the more you care.

I'm feeling motivated with my current university studies. Three exams and four assignments. I will be okay. It will all be worth it in the end. And when it all finishes I will be the happiest girl. No matter what happens, all I need is my mind and incentive. Three more semesters to go!

Sorry for the lack of uninteresting and bland updates, a lot has been on my mind and in my dreams. My nightmares and realities. I've also been busy with the amount of work load. In this economic downfall, nothing should be taken lightly.

Youth today, I believe possess a power of freedom. We can do anything. As the Gen Y are getting old and the Gen X are getting older, the world keeps changing. Sure we can keep watching Youtube videos, read online news and blogs about our corrupted world and people today, and have intelligent and intellectual conversations about it. But why not do something about it? Small things I mean. I try to sometimes, but all I can do at the moment is live the way those people who are ruining the world aren't.

This week I've ordered a classic faux fur stole cape. Can't wait until it comes. Why did I have to order it during spring....hot hot hot.

I can't wait to move out. I will have the motivation to decorate everything and learn to finally cook properly! My apartment would be so clean and full of my drawings in frames. I want everything black and vintage. Dark timber floors and white walls. It's my dream and more. My peace and mind.