I make time for work and play, so I don't have days where I don't see you. I can't stand not seeing you.
-Don't make decision when you're mad, don't make promises when you're happy.


Don't rely on anyone. They will mostly fuck you over. If you do have someone who you can constantly rely on, don't ever let go of them. You are consider to be very lucky. Keep them close and keep them tight. I only wish I knew what that felt like.

Every time I rely on some one, I end up getting hurt or disappointed. I would rather rely on myself and take the on the responsibility than let others do it for me. Because I can only blame myself if some thing unexpected go wrong. It's easier that way. I like to know what is happening around me. I like to be aware.

Today is my aunt's 26th birthday, we are going in the city for Karaoke, Time Zone and dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. Can't wait to wear my new maxi dress out. I'm going to drink and forget the night away. Family is forever.

The more you suffer, it shows the more you care.

I'm feeling motivated with my current university studies. Three exams and four assignments. I will be okay. It will all be worth it in the end. And when it all finishes I will be the happiest girl. No matter what happens, all I need is my mind and incentive. Three more semesters to go!

Sorry for the lack of uninteresting and bland updates, a lot has been on my mind and in my dreams. My nightmares and realities. I've also been busy with the amount of work load. In this economic downfall, nothing should be taken lightly.

Youth today, I believe possess a power of freedom. We can do anything. As the Gen Y are getting old and the Gen X are getting older, the world keeps changing. Sure we can keep watching Youtube videos, read online news and blogs about our corrupted world and people today, and have intelligent and intellectual conversations about it. But why not do something about it? Small things I mean. I try to sometimes, but all I can do at the moment is live the way those people who are ruining the world aren't.

This week I've ordered a classic faux fur stole cape. Can't wait until it comes. Why did I have to order it during spring....hot hot hot.

I can't wait to move out. I will have the motivation to decorate everything and learn to finally cook properly! My apartment would be so clean and full of my drawings in frames. I want everything black and vintage. Dark timber floors and white walls. It's my dream and more. My peace and mind.

I awoke from a nightmare which is my reality at 5am today. It is now 20 past 6 am.

I believe if you truly love someone, you would give up anything for them. Who cares what others think, because at the end of the day, you will only have each other, and if you're lucky, you'll get to spend years together. Making each other happy and making each other cry. The other person who is willing to love you back will never ask for much, and when they do, you must listen because it's something worth giving time for. They will never ask you for anything because they are happy with the person that you are, and if they do it will come from the heart. They are one of the fews people in the world who will never judge you. If your actions hurt them, you have to stop, because you cant stand the fact that you have actually hurt this person. You can't be selfish and conceited.They only want the best for you and they will never stop caring. You can't go your whole life lying to them just to keep them there. If you do, I feel sorry for you. If you can't see why they're sad, I feel sorry for you, and if you're not willing to stop hurting them by your actions, then you don't deserve them and I will not feel sorry for you. It will only end up hurting both and leave you with nothing. And in the end, you telling someone you love them isn't the truth, and it will never be worth it. You will not be someone who is worth the heart. Life is short and you will be a big waste of them. Finding someone who you truly love is one of the virtues of life. One of the many keys to eternal happiness. Don't fuck up.

*Keeping in mind that everything works both ways, therefore the other person will will give up anything for you, if their action is hurtful to you. It's only fair.